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Residency Paris
July - October 2024
Three month residency in the heart of Paris
cité internationale des arts x Institut Français, with support from Fondation Francés
July - October 2024
Three month residency in the heart of Paris
cité internationale des arts x Institut Français, with support from Fondation Francés
During this residency in the Parisian Marais, I focussed on my new obsession: a dotted horse.
The month before coming to Paris, I went on the Camino del Norte. On this long walk from the French/Spanish border to Santiago de Compostela, I saw one special dotted horse in a meadow. Something in me recognized her, and she wouldn’t leave my mind. So, I decided to figure out why I was so suddenly obsessed with this horse, despite my big fear for this beautiful, muscular, big animal.
Through painting, drawing, aquarelling and collaging, I found out that this horse was a visualization of my fear. In this process I got closer to this fear. I did not look too much at realistic horses, but tried to visualize what the imaginative horse would look like. Almost like a nightmare figure. I started drawing myself with the same dots and vampire teeth as I drew the horse with, made us meet in a painting, and made us wrestle.
I realized that me and the horse are one. That the fears we carry are not separate from us, but the fear and us are one. What I found interesting is that a horse is a mirroring animal, they mirror your energy, revealing what your body language says. In this project I got closer to this fear, and explored the topic of ‘control’.
Oil on linnen, 150x170 cm, Aug. 2024
Oil on linnen, 170x200 cm, July 2024
Oil on linnen, 120x200 cm, Dec. 2024